"Why do you yearn to live when you know everything must die?"

Sad love songs

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Tue, 24 Apr 2007 03:17:33 GMT

I feel tonight emotionless more than I'm used too. I feel like I need to hear bad stories about love, I don't know, sometimes it happens I think. Well here's two songs than I'm so in love with their lyrics and meaning. What I like about punkish-rock bands, it's when they come up with their own lyrics with pain and emotion. I think that's why I like poetry not reading a book with full of poems but in songs. The music floats and is reflecting more the meaning and the emotion. I should stop writing here 'cos I'm repeating myself.XD

Artist:BILLY TALENT
Ablum: II
Year:2006
Title:Pins And Needles

Never understood how she could,
Mean so little to so many
Why does she mean everything to me?

Is it worth the pain, with no one to blame?
For all of my insecurities
How did I ever let you go?

Questioning her good intention
Jealousy's a bad invention
When you push on glass, it's bound to break

Even when she was defensive,
It just gave me more incentive
The more you squeeze, the more it slips away

I never walked so far on a lonely street
With no-one there for me
Is it worth the pain, with no one to blame?
For all of my insecurities
How did I ever let you go?

Accept this confession! ...I'm walking on pins and needles
You're not my possession! ...I'm walking on pins and needles
My conscience is vicious! ...I'm walking on pins and needles
And I'm begging forgiveness! ...I'm walking on pins and needles

I never walked so far on a lonely street,
With no one there for me
It took too long to see her in misery
And now it's clear to me

That it's worth the pain, always take the blame
For all your own insecurities
How did I ever let you go?

Artist: Bullets And Octane
Album: In The Mouth Of The Young
Year: 2006
Title: Bathroom Floor

A normal day
Began like any other
Without your breath
Breathing down on me
Am I awake
Nothing looks familiar
Where have you gone…far
Still awake
Left you high and dry
Am I to blame
Who is it cooking up your happiness today

Oh lonely eyes
Told a lonely story of
Another day
Your pale white skin
My bathroom floor
Is there any reason to save me
Where have you gone…so long

Still awake
If you’re so high and dry
Then whose to blame
Don’t worry baby
It will all be over some day, today

Time passes, dust will settle
We melt away
Regret it, swear it, say no more

Fall away
Yet all you have to do is find a vein
Who is it cooking up your happiness today…
So easy

I’m still the same
I’m feeling lost and lonely and to blame
Don’t worry baby it will all be over
Some day

Sit and pray
I know it’s hopeless but I still believe
I could be you, you could be me

Kill me somebody, please...

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Mon, 16 Apr 2007 08:16:35 GMT

Do you know what time is now? 3H54 in the morning! Oh my god, kill me please, somebody,please kill me, I never think that one day, it could happen. Waking up at this time. It's because of the phone, dammit machine! The girl who's suppose to work this morning (open at 5H30 am) called me to work for a replacement. There's snowstorm with icing rain outside and she changed his tires from his car this weekend. It's pretty clever when it's been a week people don't stop to tell you they'll be a big storm! On TV they said it should goes about between 15 to 30 centimeters, it depends where you're located in the province. She called an other girl, who can't because she planned all her day, send her name in various places for another job. -_- Oh gosh, no comment on this.

Good news! Maybe I'll come this summer for another weekend in Toronto! On July 13th, a friday hi hi hi, Billy Talent, Alexisonfire, Cancer bats, Attack in black and Die mannequin, will play at the Molson amphitheater. It's a nice setlist even if I know only a little Alexisonfire and Cancer bats. I might go with one of my friends who never travelled before in Toronto. She wants to see Billy Talent in live but I told her that if she doesn't want to trash, just to tell me because it'll happens. So if I'm going, I want to see some of you guys!

For my car, I have to talk with my father if he wants to help me finding the perfect treasure. I hope he does because I don't know a thing about cars, well how much gallons they need for gaz if they're economic, anything. He's a mecanician, don't tell me he doesn't know a damn thing about cars.XD The only reason, he'll give me for not buying a car, it'll be like:"Are you really sure you want to buy a car? or I don't have time." I'm gonna pray lol.

On saturday, I've been to a show in Montreal...alone! It's strange, you know.XD It was so damn cool and awseome! The ticket costed $15 bucks plus fees and all the shit goes with it, so it gives you $23.30 dollars. I've seen Neurosonic, than I don't know, Walls of Jericho and Kittie. They really rocked! It's been my third time to see Walls of Jericho, last time it was in October and my first time to see Kittie. They are really but really good in live. I was in the front line and it was so nice. They were supposed to be two other groups but I don't know what happened to them. Maybe the place has a limit of time for their stage because it's a club with two floor, the second one with a stage. It's called Les Foufounes électriques and it's so small! We were like 100 or 200 people, well for Kittie of course but still. But I really like the atmosphere, it's so different from bigger concerts place like Bell center or anything like that. It's a clubhouse, intimate and pretty cool. I don't know much about Kittie except their first album, I did like my night. I even met a random guy who was alone too! It was fun.

For Otakuthon, Montreal's anime festival, I'll do two cosplay. Cosplay, me? Yeah I think it'll be the only year, I'll do it, just to know what it feels. I'll cosplay Mana from Malice Mizer and the second one, I still don't know between Banana Shuichi from Gravitation or a giant Kumaguro, Ruyichi plushie in Gravitation anime. Big deal? I don't know, the only big problem with Kumaguro it's the head. How to make a big mascot head? With paper a some boxes than I built or I don't know. Well it's the same damn thing the banana suit....I'll think about that. I need to take my shower, eat something and go to work.

Have a good day people, take care of you

Kisses

Gangenoir

Oh my god!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Tue, 10 Apr 2007 18:46:04 GMT

Hi everyone! I'm still here, read stuff, answering topics but never write anything here. Beat me if you want to.XD What's new? It's been a month since my last topic. I'm suppose to post pics of the lineup when we were waiting for DeG in Feb but damn! I'm not even on my computer, but good news for those who are and still waiting for the pics, I scanned a few already. I just need to clean up a bit my pc and uploaded them on photobucket and it should be on my livejournal, soon...

Happy St-Patrick's day! I was enjoying this day alone in my room smoking cigars and chatting with people from France. It was nice but next year I want to go in Montreal to see the parade and have fun with all the Irish.

Happy easter! Does someone really care except eating chocolate? I think it's only good this day for breaks lol. I received little chocolate hens from my dad and my stepmother. It's so kind but the really meaning of easter day is not eating chocolate. Then who cares about Jesus resurection? No one I think in our generation but I don't know.

Happy birthday to my bestfriend Julie! It's a big day today! You are legally major everywhere in the world, wow 21 years old! Time flies so fast.

Happy birthday to my other bestfriend Poupou! It was on April 2nd but we did have so much fun watching Gravitation and walking in the streets.

I bought a monkey named Telus. Do you know why I named it Telus? Because of Telus commercials of course, I have the same monkey as they use.XD He's so nice and soft. I put him around my neck and people are looking strangely at me but I don't give a s***.

I'm missing people than I met in February, Maggie, Mariek, Stacy, Tami, Vicky etc. well all of you I love you and I miss you. I want to see you in a future soon but I don't know how it'll be and when. Well I just need to tell you this.

DeG is coming back in America touring with Deftones. It's nice but I won't go because maybe, I'll buy a car. So I won't have any money and going alone for a show in the States, no. I'd prefer to wait they'll come back with their own tour.

I like a new group, not new but for me it is, Billy Talent. They have powerful songs with meaning and great music. I'm just in love with them. The only thing than I regret, it's knowing them after they came in Montreal. I heard they're going to play at the Molson Amphitheater with other groups...it might be interesting. I'll think about it.

Wow so much things to say. I'll stop here and try to update my livejournal soon maybe not this week but the next one.

Take care of you everyone

-xxx-

Julie

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Sat, 03 Mar 2007 09:43:40 GMT

Hi guys! What's up everyone? Everything's going well in my life and that's good. I don't have the pics of the line-up like I promised, I'm lazy to do some clean up over my scanner...XD. I just want to tell everyone than I'm ok and say I love you all! We never say it to our friends so I'm takings a few minutes to tell you again:" I love you guys!" I feel better now.

This summer I have vacations and I want to go somewhere alone and I don't know where. I was thinking this yesterday and there's a few places than I have on my mind; Novia-Scotia but it takes 15 hours driving from my house -_- , New York but I think it's a bit dangerous alone going in this city, somewhere in Ontario or Quebec city. I'll rent a car for a week or two and I'll drive where I want to! Free as bird! If you have suggestions to give me, it would be good and fun.

Have a good day!

OMG!!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Wed, 21 Feb 2007 07:36:02 GMT

It's been over an half and year than I didn't post anything!! The last post, I did write was when I bought the tickets for the Family values tour! It's so long.

Okay, I'm lazy to update sometime but on the other hand I don't know what to write. I'll make this post quick 'cos it's 2h14 in the morning, I'm a vampire who haunt poor little children at night XD. Not true, well it's been two days, I work on my livejournal since I have new friends and I can't see them often 'cos some of them are in Toronto and our schedule won't work or bla bla.

I have some pics to show but I won't do it now due of the time. I'll post two poems than I wrote in fallen around october, I think. My really first writings in english!! I was and I'm still proud of my work.

Open your eyes and let me touch you
I want to touch the softness of your skin
I want to touch your hair made in silk
All you have to do is open your eyes

Open your heart and let me reach you
I want to know your deepness secrets
I want to know all your strongest emotions
All you have to do is open your heart

Open your mind and let it fly away
Free your thoughts from your head
Let your soul be the way it does
All you have to do is to be yourself

Open your eyes, your heart and your mind to me
I want to know everything, anything
Let me be your soul mate, your lover
All you need to do is to be mine

The end

The second poem, I like it more 'cos it's what I'm used to write. Dark stuff, not depressive...but deeper and dark. What I do like about it is I put some rimes unless the first poem.

My pain is you

Can't you see my pain?
Don't you see that I suffer?
Maybe for you it doesn't matter
Maybe you just don’t care, maybe

Would you be able to stop my cries?
Would you do it? For me would you?
Why should I care? Tell my why…
You can’t understand even I explain

Tell me a truth about you
Just once, just to forget your lies
Will you? I don't know if you can
I don't know why being here

Don't you hear my dying silence?
Can't you feel that I have the blues? Can you?
When are you when I need some presence?
You’re never here with me, never!

Then leave me on my own!
I don't need you anymore!
My pain and my cries won’t die
But now who cares? You? Me? No one!

The end

Well that's all for tonight, hope you enjoy to know than I'm still alive! Kisses everyone!

Family values tour

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Mon, 19 Jun 2006 04:45:49 GMT

I've got my tickets!! I'm too happy, I'll dance all night-long if I can...I'll be in the mosh pit, it'll be great just in front of the stage. It's so amazing, I'd just wish to have a good view. We're going to the Molson amphitheatre and I have a map than I found on Canada_deg.

Last saturday, I went at the first Montreal anime convention ever! It was great, people took pictures of me but I don't have a good smile. It doesn't matter, it was nice really! I have two pictures of me.

I'm going to sleep, I need it so bad...

I'm not dead!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Mon, 05 Jun 2006 14:11:56 GMT

I know, I'm not here a lot these days. Well Dir en grey is coming on August 28th and I can't stay relax! I'm planning to go with my friend Ju-san and I have to take a reservation for a place in a bed and breakfast, take a reservation for tickets train and buy our tickets for the show. Hope we'll have a good place...

I'm excited, Eclipse write me back for their first single! I'd take the first set of pictures, I think it's cool. I have to write them...later on today. I went on their new website and I don't know if I stupid but I can't go anywhere on their page...-_- I want to see all the new design and updates, like lyrics etc. but I can't! Maybe they'll fix it in a few days.

This weekend, it's the Otakuthon at Montreal. It's a small anime convention. I think that's great we can have this event here! I wish, I'll see a lot of cosplays there. I'm not going to cosplay, just diguise. I'll wear a wonderful japanese kimono than I found in Chinatown, I'll have a small pink umbrella, I have to protect from the sun. I'll put some make-up, red lips and black eyeliner but not too much 'cos maybe it'll be hot there. I go only on saturday, they'll plan two days, so I'll stay all day long. It starts at 10am and it finishes at 23pm.

Want to sleep...for the rest of my life

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Wed, 03 May 2006 21:46:54 GMT

Not a big update. We've started a new month, yeah! On 30 april it was my bro's birth, yesterday my dad's birth and on 6 may my cousin's birth. Everyone in the same week...gosh that's a lot. I worked monday and yesterday night and it sucked all my energy. That's why I'm so tired but at night it gave me a good thing, I had continued my fiction! I decided to split it in three parts for each day in the weekend. I'm not going to write a summary until I finish it.

Good news! Dir en grey will take part of the Family values tour this summer. They should come at Toronto but I don't know when. I hope so much they'll be there it'll be cool. Well I wait for better news soon.

I got to go, see you guys!

Youppi!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Thu, 20 Apr 2006 23:55:21 GMT

Yeah I have the net on my computer back again! That's great.

Yesterday, I walked a lot in Montreal downtown. I only bought a book, it's Gravitation: the novel. I have started to read it on my way to my house and I have continued today. I read epilogue and chapter 1. It's cool, the first page presents the most important characters. It's helpful since the last time I have read the first two mangas. There's the cover of the novel.

Nothing much to say except maybe Dir en grey will come this summer at Toronto for the Family values tour. Hope they'll come.

Bye bye

Happy Easter....a little bit late

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Tue, 18 Apr 2006 14:35:04 GMT

Hi people. On sunday it was Easter day, hope that everyone received chocolate. I did received chocolate by my step family but I didn't started to eat it. I'm not a fan of milk chocolate I'd prefer black one. Hum...

Yesterday, I came back from my dad's house. It wasn't terrible but I wish that sometimes he'll be more comprehensive. I told him than I'll be a photograph and he said that he doesn't understand why I want to do this job 'til I'll crave for food, I'll be poor for the rest of my life and etc. I don't want to resume everything but it looks like this. In ten years guys, you're going to see a skeleton with a lot of hair. Crap!

Tomorrow morning, an "computer repairer" will come and plug my rooter. It'll be a good thing for me but I think than my mom is happier that me.lol I'll burn everything is on my computer except mp3, I need to listen something, clean up the hard disk and defragment it. I'll try again to make WinMx and Emule work but I have to break all the firewalls and that's the worst thing to do. I'll see it tomorrow.

Tomorrow afternoon, I'm going in Montreal and spend a good day all alone. I need to breathe and change ideas. I have to go at Hmv to pass a command for my cousin. He wants Blue gender. I'll stop in the Chinatown see if there's nothing to buy...I'm not sure to buy anything. Dvds are zone 3 or 2 so I can't read them or they are pirated from Hong-Kong. I prefer to download it on my computer than encourage people to buy cheap stuff that is not original.

See you guys!

I wanna sleep!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Thu, 13 Apr 2006 23:10:25 GMT

Hell I'm so tired. I just wanna sleep dammit! I didn't sleep well last night so today I got all the effects. I need to sleep early. It'll be a good thing, I'm sure of it.

Got a new friend! She comes from France. She's named Mélissa and have the same age as me. She's fine and she likes j-rock too. It's cool.

Easter is sunday and I'm going to my dad's home. It's been a while the last time I get visit him. We have a dinner at my grand-ma's house and a supper in my stepmom family. I'm excited about it.

Now I'll become a photograph! I have to move in the city of Quebec next year and I can't wait! It'll be fabulous, I swear! Being in a city with full of history and far from my family. I like them but I think, I need to live on my own. The saddest thing is I will not see my friends a lot but I'll get use too. It'll give assurance and bring me a experience.

Gottcha!

Dolls

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Wed, 12 Apr 2006 14:26:56 GMT

Ok I've got nothing to do in my days so I dod dolls. Yeah, it's cool you know and I tried to create twice of time Die from Dir en grey. Ok I'll go hide in my closet with shame.

Kazumi Die

Kazumi dolly Die

Normal Die

At least yesterday, I saw my helper for my career advice and now I know what I'm gonna do. I'll photograph! This is so exciting! I have to wait one year 'cos the school who's giving the class is complete and they don't open in winter like college. -__- Crap! I think I'll take a course but I'm not sure in what. Maybe in some make-up thing or somewhat like this. I have to save my money and I'll investigate all of it in my computer! Add photoshop, some new pieces and a new printer. I still have plenty of time to do it but I'm too excited.

Have a good day everyone!

Happy birthday Julie!!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Mon, 10 Apr 2006 16:07:23 GMT

Well Happy birthday to my best friend. Hope you'll receive everything you want on this special day. Make a wish...

And have a good time

Monday morning

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Mon, 10 Apr 2006 14:52:55 GMT

I hate mornings. They are long, boring and they wake you up. Grrr. Oh wathever. Yesterday I received a review! I was so happy! The review was very constructive and I like that. It really help you. I don't have so much to write except I didn't have a real good week-end. I can post lyrics for fun, sure why not. Hum...but what? I know!

Credits to Lavender no Heya

~Yue Can~ *Lunar Eclipse*
Compose and writen by Ling

Jiu chan zai an shi zhi zhong bing leng tou de yue guang
Zai lan se zhong bei rong hua shen ru hui se de qiang

Jiu chan zai jing zhong na bing leng tou de yue guang
Zai cang bai zhong bei rong hua shen ru hui se de qiang

Shen xian zai yan shen de shen chu shan dong zhe tong nian de e meng
Zhan dou zhe tai qi le shuang mou zhu shi zhe chuang wai de

Yue guang zhi yi de ran shao fan teng de xue ye
Dong jie de mu guang zai an chu bing feng de tie chuang
Mi ban de xuan li xing fu de huan xiang

Ren yi san luo can sui de yin ying ke hua zai wo shen shang
Shen ru le xue ye lan se de bing leng dong jie zai xin zhong

Ren yi san luo can sui de yin ying ke hua zai wo lian shang
Shen ru le ji fu lan se de xue ye dong jie zai xin zhong

Yi pian yue guang luo ru yan zhong qi tong le yan di de yin ying
Zhan dou zhe bi shang le shuang mou duo shan zhe chuang wai de

Yue guang zhi yi de ran shao lan se de xue ye
bing jie de mu guang zai an chu bing feng de tie chuang mi ban de xuan li xing fu de huan xiang

I want that man!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Fri, 07 Apr 2006 19:55:14 GMT

All I ask for my birthday is that man! He's named Hong and was bassist in the chinese group Silver ash. He's so nice! The only problem is that he lives in China but I don't care XD. I remembered an interview than I read once. The interviewer was asking at each member which one of them they think he's the most beautiful. Lucy answered Hong and the others answered Lucy. I swear that Lucy said right: Hong was the most beautiful man in Silver ash.

Malice Mizer -- Espérance d'une nuit

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Thu, 06 Apr 2006 22:12:05 GMT

Pour cette update, je vais la faire en français. Comme je n'ai toujours pas décidé quand j'allais traduire ma fiction, je vais la mettre en ligne quand même.

Title: Espérance d'une nuit
Band: Malice Mizer
Pairing: Gackt X Közi
Rating: R, Nc-17(plus tard)
Type: Romance
Disclamer: Bien sûr Malice Mizer ne m'appartient pas et je ne fais aucun profit sur leur dos.

Chapitre 1

C’est long. C’est vraiment long. Je suis tout seul dans mon salon et c’est long. Il n’y a rien à la radio et il n’y a rien de mieux à la télé. Je fume ma cinquième cigarette depuis une bonne demi-heure. Une au six minutes, c’est nul. C’est long, mais vraiment long. Même mes plantes doivent s’emmerder. En plus, elles sont tellement laides ça quasiment pas d’allure. Au moins, elles ne sont pas toutes seules. Je n’ai pas de copain, je n’ai pas de colocataires et mes amis sont sûrement partis veiller dans un bar. J’aurai dû y aller avec eux, mais je n’ai pas le goût de sortir.

Ils voulaient fêter à soir, car on a mis notre premier single en vente aujourd’hui. Je suis content, mais je ne me sentais pas du tout à l’aise ce soir. Depuis que nous avons notre nouveau chanteur, je me sens étrange. Il s’appelle Camui Gackuto, mais il nous demande de l’appeler Gackt. C’est mieux, je dois l’avouer. Il est mieux que Tetsu, le cinglé à la voix de casserole. Il avait un bon style, il était intelligent malgré l’air stupide qu’il se donnait. Il me manque des fois, mais c’est rare. Maintenant, il y a Gackt, le beau garçon à la voix d’or.

Il m’excite tant ce bâtard, ça fait chier. Moi, Közi le guitariste, fantasme sur le chanteur de son groupe. Le groupe n’est pas tout à fait le mien. Il est aussi à Mana, l’autre guitariste, nous avons créé Malice Mizer dans le but d’être original et de représenter la misère humaine. J’avoue que pour l’instant, nous avons réussi, notre son est plus gothique comparé à X-Japan, nous faisons des mises en scènes et nos costumes sont excentriques. Quoi de mieux?

Je m’allume une cigarette et le corps de Gackt me revient à l’esprit. Il mesure environ cinq pieds onze, il a les cheveux bruns qui vont au milieu du dos et il a de beaux yeux noisette, mais ils sont tellement plus beaux lorsqu’il met ses verres de contacts qui les rendent bleus. Je sens mon pantalon se serrer grâce à mon anatomie qui réagit facilement lorsque je pense à lui.
Je détache mon bouton et ma fermeture éclair de mon jean et je l’envoie valser sur mon plancher en bois. Je commence à me caresser les mamelons du bout des doigts.

- Hum….

Je me dis que c’est Gackt qui me caresse et non moi. Ensuite, j’accentue mes caresses vers mon ventre et mes flancs. J’aime la sensation, certains ne comprennent pas ça, je crois qu’ils ne connaissent pas assez leur corps. Bien sûr, les sensations ne sont pas les mêmes lorsqu’une personne qu’on aime ou qu’on désire, nous le fait. C’est évident. C’est aussi une question d’opinion aussi. Je me sens durcir encore plus. Je le veux tellement. Oh Gackt………j’espère que c’est réciproque. Ma main droite s’aventure vers mon pénis en érection et je commence à le caresser pour qu’il soit encore plus dur. Ça marche plutôt bien. Je commence à faire des vas et viens lentement pour prendre le plus de plaisir possible sans trop me presser. C’est bon. Je voudrais absolument que ça soit lui avec ses belles mains douces. Je m’imagine être sous lui, me tordant de plaisir alors qu’il me masturbe avec expérience. Je suis sûr qu’il en a beaucoup et surtout qu’il nous a déjà parlé de quelques unes des ses anciennes relations. Je vais à un rythme plus rapide et je laisse un gémissement flotter entre mes lèvres. Ah oui….

Dring. Non.

Dring. Crime.

Dring. Ah………fait chier.

Je réponds avec joie, vive le sarcasme, au téléphone. Une chance que le sans fil était tout près.

- Moshi moshi.

- Bonjour Közi-san.

Gackt! Pourquoi m’appelle-t-il? Il n’est que huit heures, drôle d’heure pour revenir d’un bar. Je savais
qu’il était bizarre, mais à ce point…..

- Gackuto-san. Quelle surprise!

- Je sais, je sais. Comment vas-tu?

- Bien et toi?

- Comme d’habitude.

- T’es pas avec les autres en train de fêter?

- J’y étais, mais je voulais célébrer cet évènement à ma manière.

- Ah.

- Veux-tu venir chez moi?

- Oui bien sûr! J’arrive dans pas long.

- Bien je t’attends.

Je ne sais pas quoi penser. Mon cœur bat à la chamade et mes pensées sont confuses. Je vais me changer,
me mettre sexy, ensuite me laver les mains, me maquiller légèrement et me peigner. Je ramasse mon jean et
je vais dans ma chambre le déposer dans le panier à linge. Bon quoi mettre? Je vais commencer par enlever mon chandail pour le mettre lui aussi à la même place que mon pantalon. Je sais! Je vais porter mes pantalons en vinyle et mon superbe chandail noir qui moule parfaitement mon torse. Pas de sous-vêtements, car ils vont paraître avec le vinyle. Je sors de la pièce pour aller à la salle de bain qui est juste en face. Je me lave les mains et le visage. Je prends une petite serviette qui se trouve dans l’armoire qui est derrière moi. Ça c’est fait. Je prends mon peigne et commence à démêler mes cheveux rouge sang. Ils arrivent aux épaules et dire que je les ai eu plus longs avant. Maintenant, je les aimes bien, mais dois-je mes laisser naturels ou les attacher. Ouais….finalement je préfère la première idée. Ce qui me reste à faire, mettre un peu de maquillage. J’ouvre le premier tiroir où il y a tous mes cosmétiques. Je prends du mascara et un rouge à lèvres rose très pâle à la saveur de framboises. Je prends soin d’en mettre généreusement sur mes lèvres. Je vais aller regarder mon profil et pour ça, je retourne dans ma chambre. Je m’observe de haut en bas et je me dis que si Gackt me résiste, je crois que je ne réponds plus de rien.

Je ferme les lumières et retourne dans le salon avec mes bas dans mes mains. Je les mets et je mets aussi mes chaussures. Bon je suis prêt, je prends les clefs de ma voiture et je sors de l’appartement. Je m’assure que j’ai bien barrée ma porte et sûr ce, je descends. Je sors à l’extérieur du bâtiment et vais à l’arrière de celui-ci pour prendre ma bagnole. J’embarque à l’intérieur, mets les clefs dans le contact et m’en vais chez Gackt.

Rien en particulier...

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Thu, 06 Apr 2006 22:02:29 GMT

Nothing special on today. I'll post a pic from my other cat named Charlotte and one from my dog named Yuki.

Yuki

Charlotte

Il neigait

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Wed, 05 Apr 2006 15:39:07 GMT

Well I have to post my update from yesterday to today. I got problems and I didn't have anytime to fix it.

Yeah it's snowing on a spring day...gosh I hate that. I like snow but in winter not in an another season. Nature is complex. I'm working today...I'm glad. I hope it'll be smooth because I want to continue my new fiction. I think I'm going to post my other stories on my journal and I'll try to transtlate them with the help of Voiceofanarchy.

Yesterday I saw a woman for my future career advice. It was cool, I'd talk with her a lot about what I like, what are my aspirations and dreams etc. We check about languages than I want to learn; lot of asian languages....I wonder why. She had a good idea exemple: I want to be photograph, I want to travel, I want to be perfect bilingual and I want to learn mandarin. I can go live in British-Columbia 'cos they are both speaking english and mandarin...(I suppose). It'll be far from my hometown, but I don't care about that. Well that was an exemple. It's good idea but I must see her again to be sure in what I'm going to study and what I'm going to do with my freaking life!

I have nothing more to say. Except a little picture of my family and I! This pic has been take last summer so I look a little bit weird.

From left to right: Me *no kidding lol*, my mom and my bro

One of my cats: George

We both have the same eyes!

I'll put my other pets later. See you!

Angels time

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Mon, 03 Apr 2006 12:42:37 GMT

I found a cute picture of an angel. I like them very much. They are so peaceful and perfect. It remembered when I was in secondary school, my nickname was angel. Still wonder why? Who care anyway?

Dancing angel

Misha from Pita-ten

Le printemps est là pour de vrai!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Sun, 02 Apr 2006 18:25:53 GMT

What a wonderful day! It's cool and sunny. I'm not gonna stay here a lot. I'm gonna walk maybe with my dog and I'll continue my fiction than I had started. Bye guys.

April 1th!!!!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Sat, 01 Apr 2006 11:28:31 GMT

Not a big update this morning. I have *check on the clock* five minutes! Today, I'm going to work again, after my day I'll pre-order Eqlipse first single; Reconnaissance and I'll go to one of my friend house for his birthday. His real birthday is on april 2 but it's not fun having a little party on sunday. Nothing more to say so I wish a good day. Here it'll be a rainy day, yerk!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Fri, 31 Mar 2006 22:44:33 GMT

Today, I worked again, it was cool. Nothing special happened except that we had a wonderful sunny day. It was kinda hot, 18 degrees! It's too hot on a spring day. I guess it'll be cold soon. Earlier one of my best friend called me and she was so depressed. His mom and her don't have good relationship, they argue all the time. I didn't what to say...What should I do if I was in her place? She's nearly blind, she's not going anymore at school and she's not working. All the jobs she can do, she doesn't want them. Now she wants to quit his house and live by herself. I understand his point but how will she live? I don't know, I really don't. Well she supposes to call me, not this weekend but an another day to give me some news.

Tonight, I'm going to drive! Yeah, I'm so excited, it'll be my first time than I drive on a superhighway. My mom gives me a chance and that's really nice, I think. I'll tell you in my next update how it was.

Yesterday, I was searching a Silver ash community on live-journal. I found one with some links and one of those links was a german website. I don't understand anything lol but a few words. I learned that the group were 5 members but one is unofficial. I'll try to read more and check what he's doing in the band. I'm sure he's guitarist or he can a keyboarder but I don't think so.

Well good night everyone.

On April 18th

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Thu, 30 Mar 2006 20:53:00 GMT

My day's finished! Yeah. That's great, I can relax and maybe rest a little. Good news for Canadians. On april 18th, Hmv and Archambault should release Dir en grey's album; Withering to death. I'm so glad, I was waiting the album from a long moment; well since autumn maybe.

Last tuesday, it was Dir en grey performance in New-York. I hope it was a good show. I didn't go 'cos when I heard they should come, everything was sold out and go alone in New-York for a young woman. I'm not sure it's a good idea, I wish that someday they'll come, here, in Canada...

I finished my second j-rock fiction monday. I'm so slow to write stories sometimes. The biggest problem, it's only in french. I'll try to find someone who wants to help for the translation. I'd like to be read by people in english but I'm unsure about doing all the translation by myself. Well, I'll see this. My first j-rock fiction is a Malice Mizer story and the second one, it's a Mucc story. Now I'm going to write a new fiction and it's on Dir en grey. Last year, I did started a Dir en grey fiction but it was a bit complicated and I stopped it. Maybe I'll continue someday.

In my life. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do with my life. I'm going anymore in school since this winter, I was tired of college and my parents are doing pressure. I do understand them, they want me to do a real job, not a cashier all my life and they are all messed up my mind. I think I need something to prove myself. Like a challenge. Anything, maybe studying in an english college or studying in an another country, I'm not sure. It could help me. Well at least, I'm thinking about it.

See you guys!

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Thu, 30 Mar 2006 13:50:20 GMT

I know it's been a while the last time I write something. OK I'm gonna try to update frequently, it'll be hard since we have one computer with net in my house. I'm giving a chance with my english so this live-journal will be in english. It's long to translate every messages and this morning, I got no time. I'm working today, what a surprise -_- and I'll post an another entry later. See you! Have a nice day.

gab_et_vous@hotmail.com — Mon, 27 Feb 2006 02:50:05 GMT

De retour chez moi, il y a déjà quelques heures. J'ai vu ma cousine et on a ri comme des folles en écoutant kung-fu Hunstle, un film chinois de Stephen Chow. On s'est couchée à minuit et demi pis quand on s'est levée ce matin, mon père a préparé le déjeuner. Aujourd'hui, je me pose la question: qu'est-ce que je vais faire de ma vie? Je ne sais pas. Je dois y penser, c'est sûr. Sinon ma mère est malade et cette semaine, je vais m'amuser à cuisiner et à faire le ménage. Yé! Bonsoir à tous.

Back at home, it's been a couple of hours. I spend my week-end with my cousin and we'd have so much fun, I bought a dvd and we watched it, it was so hilarous. The movie is Kung-fu Hunstle, a chinese production from Stephen Chow. We were in bed at midnight and we were in a deep sleep, one and half hour later. When we woke up, my dad cooked us the breakfest. Today, I'm asking myself a question: What should I do with my life? I really don't know. I have to think about it, for sure. My mom told me that she was sick, so the whole week, I'm going to have greatest times with the cooking and with the cleaning. That's great. Well goodnight everyone.